For starters... go get yourself a copy of Johnny Cash's cover of the NIN's "Hurt". Wow. Johnny Cash is the friggin man. How come it often times takes the death of an artist for me to truly appreciate them?
Alright. So. Life. Well... for those of you who may know, I had applied to a manager's position at our company's plant in Surrey, BC. I found out yesterday that while I was "the strongest candidate" in consideration, I did not get the job. I'm sort of disappointed, but I think it's a blessing in disguise, as I wasn't really sure if that was really what I wanted to do anyway.
So now I'm pretty torn. For those of you fairly close to me, you've known for some time that I've been struggling with my decision to keep going with this company. Bottom line is that it is a good job for a young engineer, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's right for me. I'd honestly like to try my hand at something that was less technical/design-based/behind-a-desk and more people oriented, perhaps in marketing, sales, management, etc. The real question is, how do I go about that.
You know what I think half my problem is? My job is my life. By that I mean, I essentially have no life outside of my plant. No friends here besides work friends. No hobbies except the ones I do through work (golf league, for example). I have a real problem with that. If a job is your life, then what happens when you don't h ave that job anymore? What keeps me here is the people. I have a handful of coworkers/friends here in the area that are admittedly very awesome. If I left, I know I'd be letting them down and I hate the thought of that. That's what makes this decision so hard.
I think I really need to start focusing on where I want to be, and then worry about what I want to do once I get there. Two years ago I was so desperate to get a job I would have taken something in the middle of the Sahara Desert or the Arctic Circle. And to a certain extent I am still very much free to do those things. However, I'm starting to realize that I need to like where I am, and I need to have a social network in the place I live. The bigger, the better. I'm a young, single guy and I've lost count now of how many weekends I've had no plans here - watching movies and dicking around the internet. This is not how it was supposed to be - this thought has been echoing in my head a lot lately, and it's getting me down. I need a change! The hunt is on.
What else is new? I saw "The Kingdom" last night. Pretty good flick. Hardcore violence, great story, high intensity. I spent a couple of days in Toronto on company training this past week. Spent an evening out on Toronto island. That was pretty cool. My best friend here in Hamilton, Hofford, is leaving in 3 weeks. He and his wife have taken jobs up in Sudbury making sweet coin. It really sucks to be loosing them - I love those guys. But they're doing what's best for them and that friggin rocks. It's good to see good things happening to good people, even if it makes your world a little sadder. Know what I mean?
Anyway, if this whole Ontario experience was sold on "riding the wave where it takes me" then I'm definitely in a trough right now and there's a few great whites chasing me. Gotta work my way back up to the peak.
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